I have reached a place in my life that I know that without the Lord, I am nothing. The call upon my life supersedes my desire for things of this world. Relationships, a spouse, worldly wealth, position and status... getting these things aren't hard if I close my eyes to who I am, I can have just about whatever I want. But I can't settle for less, I won't. I am compelled by this Great Gospel of Jesus Christ. Our Greatest Strength is our Greatest Weakness. I've walked away from things, people and positions of comfort to Win Christ and to Represent Christ to others.
The world will try to make you feel less than if you don't have a spouse or children... Like Hanna I've cried out to God for both, yet I am in no way incomplete as once perceived, for my being and existence is in Jesus Christ. I struggled with what I desired even when in my reach, because I didn't want to chance being less effective for Christ. I could have settled for less, but I didn't want to. I so understand now what the scriptures say about when married, you have to struggle between pleasing your spouse and pleasing God. What a liberty for me not to have that struggle. I can praise God when I want to, I can come and go when I want to, and serve my God. What the world tried to depict as a curse, has become my greatest strength... Liberty in Christ Jesus. Do I have desires, yes like many of you, however I am a servant first.